Wednesday, October 31, 2007

.: I choose :.

It is now that I must make a choice....I'm free to choose. And so I choose.

I choose love...

No occasion justifies hatred; no injustice warrants bitterness, I choose love. Today I will love God and what God loves.

I choose joy...

I will invite my God to be the God of circumstance. I will refuse the temptation to be cynical... the tool of the lazy thinker. I will refuse to see people as anything less than human beings, created by God. I will refuse to see any problem as anything less than an opportunity to see God. I choose peace... I will live forgiven. I will forgive so that I may live.

I choose patience...

I will overlook the inconveniences of the world. Instead of cursing the one who takes my place, I'll invite him to do so. Rather than complaining that the wait is too long, I will thank God for a moment to pray. Instead of clenching my fist at new assignments, I will face them with joy and courage.

I choose kindness...

I will be kind to the poor, for they are alone. Kind to the rich, for they are afraid. And kind to the unkind, for such is how God has treated me.

I choose goodness...

I will go without a dollar before I take a dishonest one. I will be overlooked before I will boast. I will confess before I will accuse. I choose goodness...

I choose faithfulness...

Today I will keep my promises. My debtors will not regret their trust. My associates will not question my word. My loved ones will not question my love. And my parents will never fear that their daughter will not come home.

I choose gentleness...

Nothing is won by force. I choose to be gentle. If I raise my voice, may it be only in praise. If I clench my fist, may it be only in prayer. If I make a demand, may it be only of myself. I choose self-control... I am a spiritual being. After this body is dead, my spirit will soar. I refuse to let what will rot, rule the eternal.

I choose self-control...

I will be drunk only by joy. I will be impassioned only by my faith. I will be influenced only by God. I will be taught only by ALLAH.

I choose Love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control. To these I commit my every single of my day. If I succeed, I will give thanks. If I fail, I will seek His grace. And then when this day is done, I will place my head on my pillow and rest.....

Thursday, October 25, 2007

.: Rain Upon My Head :.


It's been a long time since I felt the rain upon my head
A moment in seperation the foreground don't seem so bright
These angels in my head are in between the shadow and the light.
Were my arms to short to ransom you from broken skin and black and blue
Stitch your eyes so you could read this forever
Dead and broken and I'm backwards turned to love
My heart in a box I send you
for a sky held up by stars
Were my arms to short to ransom you from broken skin and black and blue
Stitch your eyes so you could read this forever
It's been a long time since I felt the rain upon my head
Your varying degrees of grayness tugging the deepest of heartstrings.
Were my arms to short to ransom you from broken skin and black and blue
Stitch your eyes so you could read this forever
Were my arms to short to ransom you from broken skin and black and blue
I'll stitch your eyes so you could read this forever.

Why Rain??????...I love Raining day so muchhhhhh....I don't know why...maybe because some of my great memories with the one i love happened on rainy days...and beside...if it rains...the weather isn't hot at all...here a song i like so much about rain and i have memories also on this song....

EVERYTIME IT RAINS

BY : ACE OF BASE

MMM baby..

I see dark clouds out my window
I know the storm is coming any minute
And the thunder just confirms my fears
And I know the tears are rimming

I'll be crying unable to stop (mmm...)
Look, here comes the very first drop

'Cause everytime it rains, I fall to pieces
So many memories the rain releases
I feel you, I taste you, I can not forget
Everytime it rains, I get wet

Darling, I am still in love with you
As time passes by, it just intensifies
I know I'll never be with you again
I'll never find another with that kindness in his eyes

I'll be trying, unable to stop
Look, here comes the very first drop

'Cause everytime it rains, I fall to pieces
So many memories the rain releases
I feel you, I taste you, I can not forget
Everytime it rains, I get wet

On sunny days I'm all right
I walk in the light
And I try not to think about the love I live without

But everytime it rains, I fall to pieces
So many memories the rain releases
I feel you, I taste you, I can not forget
Everytime it rains, I get wet

'Cause everytime it rains, I fall to pieces (everytime it rains)
So many memories the rain releases (many memory)
I feel you, I taste you, I cannot forget
Everytime it rains, I get wet (everytime it rains)

'Cause everytime it rains, I fall to pieces (everytime it rains)
So many memories the rain releases (many memory)
I feel you, I taste you, I cannot forget
Everytime it rains, I get wet (everytime it rains)

.: something beneath my memories :.

-You and I were different. We came from different worlds, and yet you were the one who taught me the value of love. You showed me what it was like to care for another, and I am a better [person] because of it. I don't want you to ever forget that. I am secure in knowing that what we had was real, and I am happy we were able to come together. And if, in some distant place in the future, we see each other in our new lifes, I will smile at you with joy, and remember how we spent a [summer vacation] beneath the beach, learning from each other and growing in love. And maybe, for a brief moment, you'll feel it too, and you'll smile back, and savor the memories we will always share together.-

Ps: " For my dearest friend MKL...many shits happened between us yet most are beautiful memories...time has been up side down before you and i came to that decision...where u had to choosed and i had to choosed for our best...you and i will remains friends forever because thats what we are from the beginning...."

Tuesday, October 23, 2007

.: Precious 1 Minute :.

What can you do in one minute of your life?

1.. In one minute you can say Surat Al Fatiha 7 times, silently and repetitively. The reward for each reading of the Surah: 1420 gooddeeds! This is on the basis that there are 142 letters in the Surah, with each letter getting you 10 good deeds. So after doing a simple calculation,7 readings will get you 9940 deeds. subhaanallah!


2.. In one minute you can say Surat Al-Ikhlaas (Kul Huwa Allahu Ahad) approximately 20 times, silently and repetitively. Remember that one reading of this beautiful Surah equals a third of the Quran. Thus 20 readings means that you have read the Quran a whopping 6.7 times! If you devote one minute of each day to this Surah you'd have read the Quran. 201 times in a month, 2412 times in one year! All this in just one minute.


3.. In one minute you can say: "Laa Ilaaha Illa Allah, Wahdahu Laa Shareeka Lah, La! hu Al Mulk Wal Hamd, Wa Huwa 'Ala Kulli Shay'in Qadeer" 20 times. (There is no god worthy of worship but Allah, alone, without any partners. For Him is all Dominion and Praise, and He is Capable of doing anything) Each saying is equal to the deed of freeing 8 slaves from the Children of Ismail (peace be upon him), and what noble slaves to set free!


4.. In one minute you can say "Subhaanallahu wa bi Hamdihi" 100 times. (All praise and glory is due to Allah) Whoever says this everyday will have his/her sins forgiven, even if the sins were as much as the froth of the ocean.


5.. In one minute you can say "Subhaanallahu wa bi Hamdihi, Subhaanallahu Al 'Atheem" 50 times. (All Praise and Glory is due to Allah, All Praise is due to Allah the Almighty). These are "a couple of phrases, light on the tongue, heavy on the scales (on the Day of Judgement), beloved to the All Merciful (Allah)". (Agreed upon).


6.. In on! e minute you can say "Subhaanallah, wa Al Hamdu Lil'lah, wa Laa Ilaaha Illallah, wa Allahu Akbar" 18 times (All Praise is due to Allah, and All Glory is due to Allah, and there is no god but Allah, and Allah is the Greatest). These are the most beloved words to Allah(swt) and his Prophet saw) that the sun has ever risen upon.


7.. In one minute you can say "Laa Ilaaha Illallah" approximately 50 times (There is no true god worthy of worship, except Allah). These are the greatest words, as they are the words of true Islamic Monotheism.


8.. In one minute you can say "Laa Hawla wa Laa Kuwata Illa bi'Laah" over 40 times. (There is no Power and Might except by Allah) This sentence is one of the treasures of Paradise.


9.. In one minute you can say "Salla-Allahu 'Alayhe wa Sallam" 50 times.(sending peace and blessings upon the Prophet) In return you get 500 prayers from Allah, as each prayer you make to his Prophet,! 10 are returned to you!


10.. In one minute you can raise your hands to Allah (s.w.t) and supplicate with any words you wish.


11.. In one minute you can advise your brother/sister in Islam if they are doing anything incorrect.


12.. In one minute you can remove anything harmful that may be lying on the street.


13.. In one minute you can give a few words of comfort to a brother/sister who is concerned for any reason.


.: my bestfriends :.

hallowwwwwwwwww....pagi yang indah.... today..i want to post some pictures about me and some of my bestfriends...









































































Sunday, October 21, 2007

.: Langkah Menuju Kesempurnaan Iman :.

Yang aku mau posting berikut ini aku dapetin di email aku, dari Nani temen kantor ku,hmmmm...bagus banget, tapi dari semua list menuju kesempurnaan iman ini, ada beberapa hal atau bisa dikatakan sangat sulit untuk aku dan sebagian atau kebanyakan orang jalankan, karena benar2 membutuhkan niat dan kesabaran tinggi...tapi...yah gak ada salahnya kita semua tahu apa2 hal atau langkah menuju kesempurnaan iman itu....

Diantara Sekian Banyak Langkah Menuju Kesempurnaan Iman :

* Bersyukur apabila mendapat nikmat;
* Sabar apabila mendapat kesulitan;
* Tawakal apabila mempunyai rencana/program;
* Ikhlas dalam segala amal perbuatan;
* Jangan membiarkan hati larut dalam kesedihan;
* Jangan menyesal atas sesuatu kegagalan;
* Jangan putus asa dalam menghadapi kesulitan;
* Jangan usil dengan kekayaan orang;
* Jangan hasud dan iri atas kesuksesan orang;
* Jangan sombong kalau memperoleh kesuksesan;
* Jangan tamak kepada harta;
* Jangan terlalu ambisius akan sesuatu kedudukan;
* Jangan hancur karena kezaliman;
* Jangan goyah karena fitnah;
* Jangan berkeinginan terlalu tinggi yang melebihi kemampuan diri;
* Jangan campuri harta dengan harta yang haram;
* Jangan sakiti ayah dan ibu;
* Jangan usir orang yang meminta-minta;
* Jangan sakiti anak yatim;
* Jauhkan diri dari dosa-dosa yang besar;
* Jangan membiasakan diri melakukan dosa-dosa kecil;
* Banyak berkunjung ke rumah Allah (masjid);
* Lakukan sholat dengan ikhlas dan khusyu;
* Lakukan sholat fardhu di awal waktu, berjamaah dan di masjid;
* Biasakan sholat malam;
* Perbanyak dzikir dan do'a kepada Allah;
* Lakukan puasa wajib dan puasa sunat;
* Sayangi dan santuni fakir miskin;
* Jangan ada rasa takut kecuali hanya kepada Allah;
* Jangan marah berlebih-lebihan;
* Cintailah seseorang dengan tidak berlebih-lebihan;
* Bersatulah karena Allah dan berpisahlah karena Allah;
* Berlatihlah konsentrasi pikiran;
* Penuhi janji apabila telah diikrarkan dan mintalah maaf apabila karena sesuatu sebab tidak dapat dipenuhi;
* Jangan mempunyai musuh, kecuali dengan iblis/syetan;
* Jangan percaya ramalan manusia;
* Jangan terlampau takut miskin;
* Hormatilah setiap orang;
* Jangan terlampau takut kepada manusia;
* Jangan sombong, takabur dan besar kepala;
* Bersihkan harta dari hak-hak orang lain;
* Berlakulah adil dalam segala urusan;
* Biasakan istighfar dan taubat kepada Allah;
* Bersihkan rumah dari patungpatung berhala;
* Hiasi rumah dengan bacaan Al-Quran;
* Perbanyak silaturahmi;
* Tutup aurat sesuai dengan petunjuk Islam;
* Bicaralah secukupnya;
* Beristri/bersuami kalau sudah siap segala-galanya;
* Hargai waktu, disiplin waktu dan manfaatkan waktu;
* Biasakan hidup bersih, tertib dan teratur;
* Jauhkan diri dari penyakit-penyakit bathin;
* Sediakan waktu untuk santai dengan keluarga;
* Makanlah secukupnya tidak kekurangan dan tidak berlebihan;
* Hormatilah kepada guru dan ulama;
* Sering-sering bershalawat kepada nabi;
* Cintai keluarga Nabi SAW;
* Jangan terlalu banyak hutang;
* Jangan terlampau mudah berjanji;
* Selalu ingat akan saat kematian dan sadar bahwa kehidupan dunia adalah kehidupan sementara;
* Jauhkan diri dari perbuatan-perbuatan yang tidak bermanfaat seperti mengobrol yang tidak berguna;
* Bergaullah dengan orang-orang shaleh;
* Sering bangun di penghujung malam, berdoa dan beristighfar;
* Lakukan ibadah haji dan umrah apabila sudah mampu;
* Maafkan orang lain yang berbuat salah kepada kita;
* Jangan dendam dan jangan ada keinginan membalas kejahatan dengan kejahatan lagi;
* Jangan membenci seseorang karena faham dan pendirian;
* Jangan benci kepada orang yang membenci kita;
* Berlatih untuk berterus terang dalam menentukan sesuai pilihan;
* Ringankan beban orang lain dan tolonglah mereka yang mendapatkan kesulitan;
* Jangan melukai hati orang lain;
* Jangan membiasakan berkata dusta;
* Berlakulah adil, walaupun kita sendiri akan mendapatkan kerugian;
* Jagalah amanah dengan penuh tanggung jawab;
* Laksanakan segala tugas dengan penuh keikhlasan dan kesungguhan;
* Hormati orang lain yang lebih tua dari kita;
* Jangan membuka aib orang lain;
* Lihatlah orang yang lebih miskin daripada kita, lihat pula orang yang lebih berprestasi dari kita;
* Ambilah pelajaran dari pengalaman orang-orang arif dan bijaksana;
* Sediakan waktu untuk merenung apa-apa yang sudah dilakukan;
* Jangan minder karena miskin dan jangan sombong karena kaya;
* Jadilah manusia yang selalu bermanfaat untuk agama, bangsa dan negara;
* Kenali kekurangan diri dan kenali pula kelebihan orang lain;
* jangan membuat orang lain menderita dan sengsara;
* Berkatalah yang baik-baik atau tidak berkata apa-apa;
* Hargai prestasi dan pemberian orang;
* Jangan habiskan waktu untuk sekedar hiburan dan kesenangan;
* Akrablah dengan setiap orang, walaupun yang bersangkutan tidak menyenangkan;
* Sediakan waktu untuk berolahraga yang sesuai dengan norma-norma agama dan kondisi diri kita;
* Jangan berbuat sesuatu yang menyebabkan fisik atau mental kita menjadi terganggu; * Ikutilah nasihat orang-orang yang arif dan bijaksana;
* Pandai-pandailah untuk melupakan kesalahan orang dan pandai-pandailah untuk melupakan jasa kita;
* Jangan berbuat sesuatu yang menyebabkan orang lain terganggu, dan jangan berkata sesuatu yang dapat menyebabkan orang lain terhina;
* Jangan cepat percaya kepada berita jelek yang menyangkut teman kita, sebelum dicek kebenarannya;
* Jangan menunda-nunda pelaksanaan tugas dan kewajiban;
* Sambutlah uluran tangan setiap orang dengan penuh keakraban dan keramahan dan tidak berlebihan;
* Jangan memforsir diri untuk melakukan sesuatu yang di luar kemampuan diri;
* Waspadalah akan setiap ujian, cobaan, godaan dan tantangan. Jangan lari dari kenyataan kehidupan;
* Yakinlah bahwa setiap kebajikan akan melahirkan kebaikan dan setiap kejahatan akan melahirkan kerusakan;
* Jangan sukses di atas penderitaan orang dan jangan kaya dengan memiskinkan orang; "Anda ingin beramal shaleh...? Tolong kirimkan kepada rekan-rekan Muslim

.: gak ada kerjaan :.


Gak ada kerjaan di hari minggu ini...lagi2 bikin eksperimen dengan MrPicassohead ....menurut gue enak ajah coba2 bikin2 gambar di site itu...seolah2 gue ngerasa kalo gue ada bakat melukis nih...hahahhahahhaha...
anyway...suamikuh kok belum pulang yah??? tiba2 kok kangen...*blushing mode on....

.: If :.

If you can keep your head when all about you
Are losing theirs and blaming it on you,
If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you
But make allowance for their doubting too,
If you can wait and not be tired by waiting,
Or being lied about, don't deal in lies,
Or being hated, don't give way to hating,
And yet don't look too good, nor talk too wise:
If you can dream--and not make dreams your master,
If you can think--and not make thoughts your aim;
If you can meet with Triumph and Disaster And treat those two impostors just the same;
If you can bear to hear the truth you've spoken
Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools,
Or watch the things you gave your life to, broken,
And stoop and build 'em up with worn-out tools:

If you can make one heap of all your winnings
And risk it all on one turn of pitch-and-toss,
And lose, and start again at your beginnings And never breath a word about your loss;
If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew
To serve your turn long after they are gone,
And so hold on when there is nothing in you
Except the Will which says to them: "Hold on!"
If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,
Or walk with kings--nor lose the common touch,
If neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you;
If all men count with you, but none too much,
If you can fill the unforgiving minute With sixty seconds' worth of distance run,
Yours is the Earth and everything that's in it,
And--which is more--you'll be a Man, my son!

--Rudyard Kipling--

.: Living and Lovin Life :.

Good Morning...Guten Morgen...Selamat Pagi...

Its's very boring here now at home..its almost 6am,jakarta time..and i wake up at 5am,because my husband have a morning flight today...after made some breakfast for him, and prepared everything that he needs,i decided to go back to my room and wanted to have another nap...lol...but baru ajah 5 menit masuk kamar, suamiku pamit untuk berangkat kerja...huh...its sunday morning!!!! and he have to work...actually i really wanted to go out with him today for movies, yesterday we cancelled it because on the way to the movies we had a big argument and it really turns our mood to bad that made us cancelled to watch the movies at kelapa gading...Thanks God...when we back at home we both can cool down and finish the big argument that we have....

and now, after he left to work,like i said...i was trying to get back to sleep but couldnt do that...like i still have something bugging on my mind...but i just can think positive...as i recently got many bad things at work and home...

This is what i got in my mind now..about LIVING and LOVING LIFE....

Everyone has a past,am i right?? You cant escape it, you cant run or hide from it, you dont have to love it, but you have to live with it...I can not say that mine was peaches and creams, but I must say that I embrace my childhood whole heartedly and that everything that I have lived through has made me the person that I am today...I feel the need to have thought on this because I had a blast from the past a couple minutes ago before i got that "suck" bad news from my boss...and it was on my own accord...I felt compelled because I dont get many opportunities to visit the city that molded my very being...

I love being here in Jakarta,Indonesia....yet I hate it because what still exists here that make me want to go away...but anyway...this is my home...

It's easy to say forgive and forget,but putting words into action is a mighty feat when so much hurt of so many people is on the line...How can I feel Ok with my own life when the people closest to me are still in turmoil ; are still drowning in regret that they cant admit ; reset life decisions made long ago ; neverhad opportunities to explore life dreams..??? Am I a product of duty...??? Of ignorance...??? Certainly not love... But I am not existing without Love I am certain...

Ugh....I just hope...everything that i got now will turns out to be better soon...Because i have the love from all the people surround me...my husband,my parents,my family,my friends....

Before i ended this craps i have this morning...here a quiz i took just a while ago about personalities...




Have A Good Sunday to all of you!!!!

Saturday, October 20, 2007

.: ngimpi :.


SEBENARNYA CINTA
By : Letto



Satu detik lalu
Dua hati terbang tinggi
lihat indahnya dunia

Membuat hati terbawa


Dan bawa ku kesana
Dunia fatamorgana
Termanja-manja oleh rasa
Dan ku terbawa terbang tinggi oleh suasana


Dari sudut mata
jantung hati mulai terjaga
Berbisik di telinga
Coba ingat semua


Dan bangunkanlah aku
Dari mimpi-mimpiku
Sesak aku disudut maya
Dan tersingkir dari dunia nyata


Dan bangunkanlah aku
Dari mimpi indahku
Terengah-engah ku berlari
Dari rasa yang harusnya kubatasi


Dan kau menawarkan
Rasa cinta dalam hati

Ku tak tahu harus bagaimana Untuk raba mimpi atau nyata Dan bedakan rasa dan suasana Dalam rangka sayang atau cinta yang sebenarnya


Dan bangunkanlah aku dari buta mataku
Jangan pernah lepaskan aku
Untuk tenggelam di dalam mimpiku.....


Aya naonnn nih...!!!! pagi-pagi baru bangun langsung nge-blog and langsung browsing lirik lagunya letto?????
begini ceritanya....
semalam pulang jam 10 sampe rumah, capek banget setelah seharian kemarin ajak jalak keponakannya suamiku si vitrani dan adiknya bunga...sebenernya sih gak ada yang special...cuma ajak makan dia keluar, rutinitas tiap weekend yang aku punya semenjak menikah sama suamiku, cuman yah...aku emang begitu, kalo dah seharian keluar pasti deh capek banget, padahal dulu waktu sebelum nikah, rutinitas untuk keluar kongkow sama temen2 aku...itu hal yang tiap hari aku lakuin disela2 waktu kerjaku...dan aku gak pernah ngerasa capek sedikitpun...tapi semenjak nikah, rasanya aku cepet sekali capek kalo dah pergi kemana2...dunno why... huhhh... *sigh mode on....
nah...sampe rumah jam 10 semalam,aku gak langsung tidur, tapi nemenin suamiku online dulu, dia lagi browsing ebay karena lagi kepengen beli helicopter remote di ebay yang dah jadi incerannya sebulan ini...sambil nemenin dia, aku putusin untuk nonton dvd the twinnes ..mary-kate and ashley olsen yang judulnya when in rome....
nonton dvd itu bikin hati jadi pengen ke rome....indah banget kota...sampe2 aku ketiduran dan gak smapai selesai nonton dvd nya...hhehehehhehehe...
nah...pagi ini jam 6 aku dah kebangun gara2 sepupuku si Ade yayan udah nyetel lagunya letto itu kenceng banget...walhasil aku kebangun dengan indahnya, padahal lagi mimpi diajak jalan-jalan ke eropa sama suamiku...hiksssss.....bener2 deh...tuh lagu bikin aku kebangun dari mimpi indahku....
Dan bangunkanlah aku
Dari mimpi-mimpiku
Sesak aku disudut maya
Dan tersingkir dari dunia nyata
Dan bangunkanlah aku
Dari mimpi indahku
Terengah-engah ku berlari
Dari rasa yang harusnya kubatasi
*sigh mode on again...
bangun rhie...ayooo jangan kebanyakan mimpi....cucian 2 hari udah numpuk tuk!!! ...walahhhhhhh....dezighhhhhhhhhhh...langsung nyadar deh...kalo aku harus segera nyuci cucian ku yang dah numpuk 2 hari...sementara suamiku,masih dengan indahnya terlelap....huhhhhhhh...another *sigh....

Friday, October 19, 2007

.: waiting :.



hmmmm....

its already 1.15 am in the morning...my husband hasnt arrives at home yet...i was fall asleep then awake because of my phone was ringing...and it was from him...he said he just landed in cengkareng...
aduhh...gak berasa dah nungguin dia landing from 9pm sampai2 gue ketiduran...emang yah...menunggu itu hal yang paling gak ngenakin...setiap hari gue harus berkutat dengan perasaan khawatir nungguin dia pulang terbang....i only can wait at home and pray for him so he have a safe flight and safe day during his working time...having a husband whom has a job like my husband is more like a nightmare...everyday i kept worrying...i kept thinking...when he will be landing...and all i can do is pray...
and now almost 1.30am in the morning..i still waiting for him, but thanks God he's already arrived at cengkareng airport and will be home soon in another 45 minutes....geeeeeezzzzzzzzzzzzzz....another 45 minutes!!!!!...it means i have to wait again...hopefully i didnt fall asleep again...if i fall asleep,then who will open the door?? everybody in our house already sleep...
i'm must be patient....

Thursday, October 18, 2007

.: Only One :.

hmmm...some chores of today already done by me....but some ,i kinda lazy to finish it....then i heard a song play on my TV...my favorite song by "YELLOWCARD" called "My Only One"....
why suddenly the song appears on the tv..??? made me sad....made me remember to one of the greatest person i've ever known in this world that i hurted him so much just last month...
Last month i made a confession to him that i already married...and he shocked out of to death knowing it....see, he got a crushed on me since 3 years ago but i never pay attention on him...i know i hurted him so much...but the nicest thing he said is that he will never forget about me eventhough i have a new life now...
this one for you "JK"...I'm sorry...but this song really reflecting my heart...i'm hurt too but i have already made a decision and must to move on....thanks for the lovely time we had...for the wonderfull friendship we have...i always reminds you as my bestfriend....
ONLY ONE
by : YellowCard
Broken
This fragile thing now
And I can't
I can't pick up the pieces
And I've thrown my words all around
But I can't
I can't give you a reason
I feel so broken up
(So broken up)
And I give up
(I give up)
I just want to tell you so you know
Here I go
Scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one that gets me like you do
You are my only
My only one
Made my mistakes
Let you down
And I can't
I can't hold on for too long
Ran my whole life in the ground
And I can't
I can't get up when you're gone
And something's breaking up
(Breaking up)
I feel like giving up
(Like giving up)
I won't walk out until you know
Here I go
Scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one that gets me like you do
You are my only
My only one
Here I go so dishonestly
Leave a note, for you my only one
And I know you can see right through me
So let me go and you will find someone
Here I go
Scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one, no one like you
You are my only
My only one
My only one
My only one
My only one
You are my only
My only one

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Detik-detik Rasulullah SAW Menghadapi Sakaratul Maut

Ada sebuah kisah tentang cinta yang sebenar-benar cinta yang dicontohkan Allah melalui kehidupan Rasul-Nya. Pagi itu, walaupun langit telah mulai menguning, burung-burung gurun enggan mengepakkan sayap. Pagi itu, Rasulullah dengan suara terbatas memberikan kutbah,

Wahai umatku, kita semua ada dalam kekuasaan Allah dan cinta kasih-Nya. Maka taati dan bertakwalah
kepada-Nya. Kuwariskan dua perkara pada kalian, Al Qur'an dan sunnahku. Barang siapa mencintai sunnahku, bererti mencintai aku dan kelak orang-orang yang mencintaiku, akan masuk syurga bersama-sama aku." Khutbah singkat itu diakhiri dengan pandangan mata Rasulullah yang tenang dan penuh minat menatap sahabatnya satu persatu.

Abu Bakar menatap mata itu dengan berkaca-kaca, Umar dadanya naik turun menahan nafas dan tangisnya.Usman menghela nafas panjang dan Ali menundukkan kepalanya dalam-dalam. Isyarat itu telah datang, saatnya sudah tiba. "Rasulullah akan meninggalkan kita semua,"keluh hati semua sahabat kala itu.

Manusia tercinta itu, hampir selesai menunaikan tugasnya di dunia.Tanda-tanda itu semakin kuat, tatkala Ali dan Fadhal dengan cergas menangkap Rasulullah yang berkeadaan lemah dan goyah ketika turun dari mimbar. Disaat itu, kalau mampu, seluruh sahabat yang hadir di sana pasti akan menahan detik-detik berlalu. Matahari kian tinggi, tapi pintu rumah Rasulullah masih tertutup. Sedang di dalamnya, Rasulullah sedang terbaring lemah dengan keningnya yang berkeringat dan membasahi pelepah kurma yang menjadi alas tidurnya.

Tiba-tiba dari luar pintu terdengar seorang yang berseru mengucapkan salam. Bolehkah saya masuk?" tanyanya. Tapi Fatimah tidak mengizinkannya masuk, Maafkanlah, ayahku sedang demam," kata Fatimah yang membalikkan badan dan menutup pintu. Kemudian ia kembali menemani ayahnya yang ternyata sudah membuka mata dan bertanya pada Fatimah, Siapakah itu wahai anakku?", "Tak tahulah ayahku, orang sepertinya baru sekali ini aku melihatnya," tutur Fatimah lembut.
Lalu, Rasulullah menatap puterinya itu dengan pandangan yang menggetarkan. Seolah-olah bahagian demi bahagian wajah anaknya itu hendak dikenang.

Ketahuilah, dialah yang menghapuskan kenikmatan sementara, dialah yang memisahkan pertemuan di dunia. Dialah malakul maut," kata Rasulullah, Fatimah pun menahan ledakkan tangisnya. Malaikat maut
datang menghampiri, tapi Rasulullah menanyakan kenapa Jibril tidak ikut sama menyertainya. Kemudian dipanggilah Jibril yang sebelumnya sudah bersiap di atas langit dunia menyambut ruh kekasih Allah dan penghulu dunia ini. "Jibril, jelaskan apa hakku nanti di hadapan Allah?" Tanya Rasululllah dengan suara yang amat lemah. “Pintu-pintu langit telah terbuka, para malaikat telah menanti ruhmu. Semua syurga terbuka lebar menanti kedatanganmu," kata Jibril. Tapi itu ternyata tidak
membuatkan Rasulullah lega, matanya masih penuh kecemasan.

“Engkau tidak senang mendengar khabar ini?" Tanya Jibril lagi. Khabarkan kepadaku bagaimana nasib umatku kelak?", "Jangan khawatir, wahai Rasul Allah, aku pernah mendengar Allah berfirman kepadaku: 'Kuharamkan syurga bagi siapa saja, kecuali umat Muhammad telah berada di dalamnya," kata Jibril.

Detik-detik semakin dekat, saatnya Izrail melakukan tugas. Perlahan ruh Rasulullah ditarik. Nampak seluruh tubuh Rasulullah bersimbah peluh, urat-urat lehernya menegang. Jibril, betapa sakit sakaratul maut ini." Perlahan Rasulullah mengaduh. Fatimah terpejam, Ali yang di sampingnya menunduk semakin dalam dan Jibril memalingkan muka. “Jijikkah kau melihatku, hingga kau palingkan wajahmu Jibril?" Tanya Rasulullah pada Malaikat pengantar wahyu itu. "Siapakah yang sanggup, melihat kekasih Allah direnggut ajal," kata Jibril. Sebentar kemudian terdengar Rasulullah memekik, kerana sakit yang tidak tertahankan lagi.

Ya Allah, dahsyat nian maut ini, timpakan saja semua siksa maut ini kepadaku, jangan pada umatku."Badan Rasulullah mulai dingin, kaki dan dadanya sudah tidak bergerak lagi. Bibirnya bergetar seakan hendak membisikkan sesuatu, Ali segera mendekatkan telinganya.

“Uushiikum bis shalati, wa maa malakat aimanuku, peliharalah shalat dan peliharalah orang-orang lemah di antaramu." Di luar pintu tangis mulai terdengar bersahutan, sahabat saling berpelukan. Fatimah menutupkan tangan di wajahnya, dan Ali kembali mendekatkan telinganya ke bibir Rasulullah yang mulai kebiruan.

“Ummatii, ummatii, ummatiii?" - "Umatku, umatku, umatku" Dan, berakhirlah hidup manusia mulia yang
memberi sinaran itu. Kini, mampukah kita mencintai sepertinya? Allahumma sholli 'ala Muhammad wa baarik wa salim 'alaihi

Betapa cintanya Rasulullah kepada kita. Kirimkan kepada sahabat-sahabat muslim lainnya agar timbul
kesedaran untuk mencintai Allah dan RasulNya, seperti Allah dan Rasulnya mencintai kita. Kerana sesungguhnya selain daripada itu hanyalah fana belaka.
Amin....

.: an art :.


It's An Art...


Or...hmmmm...I don't know....


Something different maybe????
It's really fun...Try it and create of your own one... only at : mr picassohead


.: good morning :.





Morning has come...and chores already ready to be finished today...my plans for today are cooking some meals for my husband before he go off hiss duty, go to bank and atm for paying some bills that almost kills me...see one of my friend whom now have to rest in the hospital because of her lungs infection and last is to clean up my room...


So, today has begun, morning always been a good time for me to do anything, i hope you all got a beautifull morning like i did now...take care and "Enjoy the rest of the day... "


.: for my husband :.


Wednesday, October 17, 2007

.: What Stars Say About You and Him :.

this is my star signs...

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and this is my husband stars signs...

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nice....i guess we're meant to each other...amien...

.: Men Are Like.... :.


1. Men are like.....Laxatives.....They irritate the shit out of you.....


2. Men are like.....Bananas.....The older they get, the less firm they are.....


3. Men are like.....Weather.....Nothing can be done to change them.....


4. Men are like.....Blenders.....You need one but you are not quite sure why.....


5. Men are like.....Chocolate Bars.....Sweet, smooth, and the usually head right for your hips.....


6. Men are like.....Commercials.....You can not believe a word they said.....


7. Men are like.....Department Stores.....Their clothes are always 1/2 off.....


8. Men are like.....Government Bonds.....They took sooooooooooo long to be mature.....


9. Men are like.....Mascara.....They usually run at the first sign of emotion.....


10. Men are like.....Popcorn.....They satisfy you, but only for a little while.....


11. Men are like.....Snowstroms.....You never know when they're coming, howmany inches you will get or how long it will last.....


12. Men are like.....Lava Lamps.....fun to look at, but not very bright.....


13. Men are like.....Parking Spots.....all the good ones are taken, the rest are handicapped.....


this one i got from my emails a year ago and i already posted it on my old blogs...but i still think its good to be posted again...LOL...i think its quite right all those things about men...i wonder if my husband read this post what will he said...hmmmm...i guess i will ask him later to read my blog tonight...and let him give comments if he want to say something...lol..


welll...for you all...enjoy the rest of the day...me??? still searching something to post from my emails maybe,hehehehhehe

.: poems for her ".

Once...I have a bestfriend...whereever i go..she's with me...we've been through lots of things together...we've shared so many things that i treat her like my own sister...but one day...she hurted me a lot...and i cant accept it...so i decided to break the friendship we had...

this poem is for her...even though i already forgive her...but still i cant accept her anymore in my life....

I will not remember all the days
when I was there with you,
and remembering my smile and my laughter?

A portrait of my existence

lies deep within your heart,
cherishing the memories we once shared.

But i decided

nothing is worth keeping,
I wont mind to loose the special dream we once held.

Love will never die...but my love for you is dead....
Love is deep inside...but my love for you is nothing now...

Friendships are not forever between you and me.
So..don't Remember my love for you.

I used to say :"I am always there,
watching over you..To give inspiration
and strength when you may fail in a world of fears."...
But now..I wont do that any more...

You will Just continue to dream
and breathe the wonders of life,
striving to be who you want to be?

And you will only succumb to the defeats in life, failing to never overcome?
Dreams will never die...But for you...Dreams will only come for a while and wont last long..

Strength is deep inside...But you will never have that strength...

Friendships are forever....but its not between me and you....
You choosed the way that you think thats the best for you...
You prefer to loosed the friendship...

So...I decided to kick you out of my life...

jahat yah ??? but she hurted me a lot....